We have a heartbeat!

I went in for my first ultrasound today. The tech did an external first and took pictures of my uterus and ovaries. She wasn't able to see the baby on the external because I'm still so early so she did an internal (aka transvaginal ultrasound, aka dildo cam). She really didn't say much during the exam until the end when she said I'm measuring about 6 weeks (right on since according to FF I'm 5w5d). She turned the screen toward me and she showed us the little flickering heartbeat, which she measured at 104 bpm. We only got to see it for a few seconds so I didn't really have time to soak it all in. I wish I had asked her to let us watch it for a little longer.


I'm so excited that there's a heartbeat because that means that my chances of m/c are down to 4%! It's starting to really hit me that this is real. I'm really gonna be a mom! There's really a little human being growing inside me. It's crazy.

The morning sickness has started in the past couple days, too, which I think also helps make it feel more real. The other day my oatmeal made me want to gag. And last night, nothing at dinner looked appetizing so I just had chicken noodle soup and crackers. I started wearing my sea bands today and I bought ginger capsules. I'm going to be proactive about the nausea because I'm a total wimp and totally miserable when I'm nauseous. I always use the sea bands when traveling because I get motion sickness really easily. So far they seem to be helping.

In other news, I'm on vacation from work for a couple weeks and heading out of town for a funeral and a wedding. And to see friends and family. I'm so excited and relieved to not have to work for a while! Work has been super stressful for me lately and I know my vacation is just going to make me never want to go back. I'm already considering looking for a new job (part-time) after my maternity leave. As long as I can get medical benefits, I'll be all set, since DH is self-employed and on my insurance. Oh how I wish I could be a SAHM!