Announcements, Baby Showers, and the 2WW

So lately I find myself getting phone calls, text messages, or announcements on facebook from someone telling me they are expecting. I am certainly excited for their new journey to parenthood but I find that I can't muster up any truly excited congratulatory voice in which to respond. It is quite frustrating when there is something you want so badly but have no control over and everyone else around you seems to be achieving just that.

I'm feeling annoyed at my body. I don't understand what is going on, what is preventing me from getting pregnant, and how to fix it. I plan on seeing my OB soon because I have a past history of cysts... who knows what role that might be playing in this unsolvable equation. I have been working really hard to stay positive and maintain hope. Some days it is just really hard.

There are a few baby showers coming up and I don't want to go them. Period. Of course, I feel terrible because I feel selfish and I want to celebrate with the mom-to-be, but there is no way I can sit there and feel joyous about the numerous cute outfits or bibs for a baby that takes the same amount to cook as it is taking us to try to get pregnant. Would I be a horrible person if I don't go? I would plan to give a gift regardless.

Here is a blurry picture of my current chart. I am only 6dpo. Fingers are crossed. Toes are crossed. Eyes are crossed and so are my butt-cheeks.... if that is possible. :-)

Facing the Baby Stuff

My sister-in-law (who I love and adore) is about 34 weeks pregnant! We are having a shower for her tomorrow and I have been able to be involved with the planning, which is wonderful and hard all at the same time! Planning for a baby shower involves lots of baby-related stuff (obviously), and it isn't always easy to face all the pretty pink and blue things when you are TTC!

I have managed to keep my emotions under control so far but I am concerned about facing all the things that go with a baby shower like the cute little outfits, the other pregnant girls and the family members gushing all over the expectant mom! I sound so selfish right now and it's not that I am not happy for her, because I am and I'm happy for me too! After all, I get to be an aunt again!

I just want to be a Mom again too... is that too much to ask for?! Wish me luck as I face all the baby stuff tomorrow!

Showered with Love

Hello all! I'm back from my shower in Florida with a whole lot more goodies for Sophie than I could have ever imagined. I hauled two stuffed suitcases back...thank goodness for the two free bags deal on Southwest! We also shipped two packed boxes back. It was so great to see everyone and they were all so generous. I had the best time and couldn't have asked for a better shower. My sister and mom are quite the event planners and everything looked and tasted wonderful!

We'll start with the presents. Here they are in all their wrapped glory.


Sophie got a ton of cute little outfits...she's going to be all set until she hits about 3 months old. After that the poor little girl's going to have nothing. Haha. Until then, she going to be one stylin' baby! We also got a lot of diapers, some wipes, a swing, a playmat, a carseat base, and a few gift cards. Mr. Luckysaur and I are planning on hitting up Target and Babies R Us this weekend to finish up getting the rest of the stuff that we need.

The food that my sister and mom fixed for the shower was AMAZING! They need to go into business hosting parties, that's how good they are.


This was the appetizer table. There were two platters of prosciutto wrapped tomatoes and mozzerella and the stacked platters were these yummy shrimp and cream cheese cups.


For lunch we had salad with the tastiest crab cakes ever along with a fruit salad in martini glasses rimmed with pink sugar...too cute.


They also made me a yummy non-alcoholic punch to sip on that was full of fruit.



Not pictured (because I scarfed it down too fast) was the chocolate cream puffs for desert. They were to die for!

Here's a quick picture of all the girls in my family... me, my mom, sister, sister-in-law, and my two absolutely adorable nieces. I'm so happy that they were all able to make it!


Last, but not least were the decorations that my sister worked so hard on. She's so creative with these things. She made the most adorable banner with Sophie's name on it that hung above the present table along with some paper lanterns.


Sophie's name and initials were on the flowers on the table




There was a diaper cake on the coffee table.


They also had these cute popcorn ball favors for all the guests to take home with them.


Just for kicks...here's my week 33 picture. I feel like I've grown a lot in the past couple of weeks. I can't imagine what I'm going to look like when I'm 40 weeks...yikes!!!