Anxiety and OCD... sure.

So... things have been good. The time if just flying by. My brain hurts. I have realized over the past week or so that I have been experiencing anxiety and when I got to thinking about this new feeling I realized that I have been obsessing. And then obvi I looked it up because I have been doing things or rather hesitating and obsessing things, that I have never done before. And bam, Postpartum OCD and Anxiety. The first link had 5 symptoms that I agreed with which is crazy. It seems to be getting worse and thats why I think I am noticing it more. I have also been obsessing about things more and staying awake when I know it's time for bed. Its weird to see something change right before your eyes. At least its so clear to me. I go back to the doctor in a few weeks so I will be sure to let her know that something is up.

I do have to say the OCD has come with some positives, the house is clean, my dinner menus are created, I have a nice to-do list, I have thrown so much crap out, and I want to do more. There are times at the end of the day I wish I could just turn it off but I am going to talk to the doctor about it.

This is what I found online:

Hormones are released as part of this general alarm call. These hormones produce the following changes:

• the mind is more alert Very much so, I have commented that my brain just won't stop.
• heart rate increases and blood pressure rises (there may be a sensation of the heart pounding and a tightness in the chest) I have noticed my heart racing at times
• sweating increases to help cool the body Yep, noticed I have been using more deodorant throughout the day
• blood is diverted to the muscles to help prepare for action (this may lead to a light-headed feeling as well as a tingling in the hands) Definitely had the light-headed-ness
• digestion slows down (this may lead to a heavy feeling like a "lump" in the stomach, as well as nausea)
• saliva production decreases (which leads to a dry mouth and a choking sensation) Yep, been drinking tons more water
• breathing rate increases (which may feel like shortness of breath)
• liver releases sugar to provide quick energy (which may feel like a "rush")
• sphincter muscles contract to close the opening of the bowel and bladder
• immune response decreases (useful in the short term to let the body respond to a threat, but over time harmful to our health)
• thinking speeds up Most definitely, I am thinking about the next task before I can even finish the first one
• there is a sensation of fear, a desire to move or take action, and an inability to sit still

So all in all, I am pretty confident that I am suffering from anxiety, its not too bad its just crazy that I have noticed this change. 

Baby girl is three months old already. Wow.