My sister-in-law (who I love and adore) is about 34 weeks pregnant! We are having a shower for her tomorrow and I have been able to be involved with the planning, which is wonderful and hard all at the same time! Planning for a baby shower involves lots of baby-related stuff (obviously), and it isn't always easy to face all the pretty pink and blue things when you are TTC!
I have managed to keep my emotions under control so far but I am concerned about facing all the things that go with a baby shower like the cute little outfits, the other pregnant girls and the family members gushing all over the expectant mom! I sound so selfish right now and it's not that I am not happy for her, because I am and I'm happy for me too! After all, I get to be an aunt again!
I just want to be a Mom again too... is that too much to ask for?! Wish me luck as I face all the baby stuff tomorrow!
Saturday, March 20, 2010
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I hear ya! My sister AND sister-in-law are both due the same time I would have been due had I not miscarried. You're so happy for them but at the same time, it's such a sad pain at the same time! You're not selfish--I totally understand!
ReplyDeleteI know EXACTLY how you feel...man, it's rough. My sister in law had her baby and now she's taking all those 'Anne Geddes-like' pictures and it's almost hard for me to look at them... what's wrong with me? She's in post delivery newborn bliss while I sit and watch. It's so hard not to have a pity-party. We have to keep our chins up and focus on the little ones we do have! I remind myself of that EVERY DAY!
ReplyDeleteI have my friends shower coming up next Sunday, it is hard sometimes. I hope you get your BPF!
ReplyDeleteNiki - aka relaxasaur