2WW, overweight, and TMI

So I'm smack dab in the middle of the two week wait and feeling mellow. I suppose the advantage of TTCing for this long is that eventually you stop stressing. I used to get all worked up during the two week wait, but these days....eh. I think I've gotten to the point where I've had enough BFNs in a row that I don't get so devastated about it. Actually, I feel fairly blah about the whole thing.

Don't get me wrong, I'm still hopeful and still want a baby - I'm just kind of resigned to the fact that there's a good chance this cycle won't be successful, and already planning what we'll do next time. (P.S. How awesome is that image? My inner nerd is showing, I know.)

Hopefully none of THESE doctors.

In other news, I've decided that if this cycle is unsuccessful, I'm going to try to find a new doctor. I love the one I have right now, but I'm not sure she's taking my concerns about my rapidly disappearing period seriously enough - I think she's just made up her mind that it's due to me being overweight and isn't willing to look at any other possibilities. And I AM overweight - I'll own that and I'm certainly not denying it - but I can't help but feel that I'm not that overweight. I don't even wear plus sized clothing. I know many women who are larger than I am who haven't lost their periods and who have still managed to successfully get pregnant.

We all know I don't have a PCOS or a progesterone problem, but it could be something else. What, I don't know - but I do know that for my entire life (even when I was on birth control), I've had very heavy periods, and this has only started after I miscarried. So you can see why I'm skeptical - especially since I've been slowly but steadily losing weight for the last three cycles, and my period is still getting progressively lighter. Maybe I'll get knocked up this time around and this will all become a moot point. But if not, I'm cracking open the phone book to see who else I can find in my little town.

And here's the (very very very) TMI part: even though my periods have been so light lately, I seem to be passing more uterine lining - it's greyish and thin, kind of like a piece of grey balloon but only slightly stretchy. It's not unusual to get small pieces of tissue in your period, but on several occasions I've gotten big ones, about the size of my palm. Dr Google says it's not something to worry about since I haven't had any positive pregnancy tests (so it's not repeated early miscarriages), and I've found a number of posts on various health and TTC forums describing the same thing.

This is the closest thing I've been able to find online, although it's not quite as large as what I've experienced (please don't click that link if you're squeamish - this woman took photos of the actual tissue and posted them online, so that link has some very graphic pictures). Anyway, the reason I'm bringing it up is because I want anyone else who has experienced this to know that it does happen to other women too, and probably isn't anything to worry about unless it happens every single time you have a period.

So that's what's happening so far this 2WW...only eight days until testing day! Or six, if I cave early or just really feel like peeing on something, haha!