Anxiety and OCD... sure.

So... things have been good. The time if just flying by. My brain hurts. I have realized over the past week or so that I have been experiencing anxiety and when I got to thinking about this new feeling I realized that I have been obsessing. And then obvi I looked it up because I have been doing things or rather hesitating and obsessing things, that I have never done before. And bam, Postpartum OCD and Anxiety. The first link had 5 symptoms that I agreed with which is crazy. It seems to be getting worse and thats why I think I am noticing it more. I have also been obsessing about things more and staying awake when I know it's time for bed. Its weird to see something change right before your eyes. At least its so clear to me. I go back to the doctor in a few weeks so I will be sure to let her know that something is up.

I do have to say the OCD has come with some positives, the house is clean, my dinner menus are created, I have a nice to-do list, I have thrown so much crap out, and I want to do more. There are times at the end of the day I wish I could just turn it off but I am going to talk to the doctor about it.

This is what I found online:

Hormones are released as part of this general alarm call. These hormones produce the following changes:

• the mind is more alert Very much so, I have commented that my brain just won't stop.
• heart rate increases and blood pressure rises (there may be a sensation of the heart pounding and a tightness in the chest) I have noticed my heart racing at times
• sweating increases to help cool the body Yep, noticed I have been using more deodorant throughout the day
• blood is diverted to the muscles to help prepare for action (this may lead to a light-headed feeling as well as a tingling in the hands) Definitely had the light-headed-ness
• digestion slows down (this may lead to a heavy feeling like a "lump" in the stomach, as well as nausea)
• saliva production decreases (which leads to a dry mouth and a choking sensation) Yep, been drinking tons more water
• breathing rate increases (which may feel like shortness of breath)
• liver releases sugar to provide quick energy (which may feel like a "rush")
• sphincter muscles contract to close the opening of the bowel and bladder
• immune response decreases (useful in the short term to let the body respond to a threat, but over time harmful to our health)
• thinking speeds up Most definitely, I am thinking about the next task before I can even finish the first one
• there is a sensation of fear, a desire to move or take action, and an inability to sit still

So all in all, I am pretty confident that I am suffering from anxiety, its not too bad its just crazy that I have noticed this change. 

Baby girl is three months old already. Wow. 

Stinky feet!

I had an appointment on Monday and all was well. We heard the heartbeat again and you could hear the baby kicking the uterus, which was pretty cool. Today I'm 14w2d. Second trimester, yes! I'm right on track with symptoms. When the WTE book says something new could happen in the next week, sure enough it does! This week was round ligament pain. Ouch! I have wonky hips, so I'm not surprised that I'm already feeling some pain in them. I imagine it's only going to get worse. One symptom I never expected was stinky feet! Yesterday my feet were uber sweaty and, this is gross, I could smell them while sitting at my desk. And now, sitting here blogging I could smell them again. I said to my husband, it this a pregnancy symptom!?? And sure enough, it is! Gross!

My next appointment is the end of March, I need to go in to have the blood drawn for my quad screen, then 2 weeks later I'll have my 20 week scan. I declined the first trimester screening, so I haven't had a scan since 6 weeks. I'm really looking forward to another one!