Merry Christmas, Love AF

Well, it wasn't quite Christmas.. she waited till the 26th to ruin my holiday. I know I've reached the point where I haven't much hope, but she still ruins my day.

You see up until CD 27 I had this beautiful chart:

Perfect in every way.. clear ovulation, beautiful rise, "dip" that everyone on my message boards was SURE was an implantation dip... then she struck. My one consolation: I switched from B^ to a B-complex for my luteal phase defect and it seemed to work half decent. I didn't have days of spotting before AF showed.

And the witch didn't show alone.. she brought a whole family of migraines with her who plague me daily so far this cycle... since I didn't want HER I surly don't want her stowaways. CD4 and I'm sick of it.

I'm going back to soy isoflavones this month. I do ovulate but I would like some stronger, larger follies in the event that one is caught.

Cycle #16 TTC#3... here we go again.

~dreamersaur

Christmas with the Family

To those of you who celebrate Christmas, Merry Christmas!

The past couple of days were spent with family, and while I fully enjoyed being around loved ones, I could have done with out the numerous questions about when we would start a family, or bring a cousin into the family, or have a baby. In one night I was asked the same kind of question 5 times. It was a little much. Throughout the days spent with family we also found out one of our cousins is expecting. It made me feel sad about the fact that we didn't have exciting news to share with everyone like we had thought we might.

I am excited about the fact that my husband and I have a few days off together around the time that I'll be ovulating. Here is hoping that 2010 isn't a complete bust for us!

I'm still here!

I was in the US visiting family and friends for the past 4 weeks, so I haven't been on the internet too much. It was a great time, but unfortunately by the time my husband got there, we'd passed the magic time of the month so that's another cycle that was a bust. That is so frustrating! While I was there though, I did pick up some Pre-Seed and Mucinex. I'm going into this cycle with guns blazing!

Being around friends and family is a lot of pressure on the baby-making front. I asked one friend to meet us for lunch. She told me in the bathroom she was disappointed because she thought I was going to surprise her with a 6-month belly. Nope! Sorry to disappoint!! Even my dad made a comment regarding the conception of my older sister. TMI, Dad!!!

While in the US I also gained back the 10 lbs I had lost before the trip. Well, I think it's that much. I'm too chicken to step on the scale! Now I have to work that back off!

So, here we are....on to the next cycle! :(

If someone else says "It will happen" to me I just might lose it!

Lately I feel like this woman. I just want to scream at the top of my lungs when people say things to me in regards to trying to get pregnant.

Things I hear that make me want to scream:

1. "It will happen"
2. "Don't think about it and BAM it will happen"
3. "Stop stressing out about it, that is why it isn't happening"
4. "You're young, don't worry about it"
5. "Have more sex"
6. "Just get drunk and then have sex, that worked for us"
   

What do people say to you that makes you have to bite your tongue?

I had to buy another pack of tampons because AF did in fact come. Although, it wasn't on Day 13 (after O) like I thought it would be, it came the following day. Regardless, the cramps are there as a constant reminder that a new cycle has started. There is nothing I can do about it so I'll just have to suck it up and enjoy the Holidays! We'll be able to start the New Year off with a bang. Literally. ;-)

The Two Week Wait

The two week wait is probably the longest two weeks ever. It must be how children feel it takes for Christmas to come again each year. I try to be patient as I wait to be 10 DPO (days past ovulation) because that is when I could test, if I wanted to. The excitement of getting the test out, feeling ready, and then waiting for that second pink line to appear. When it doesn't show I just feel a sinking in my stomach. During the past few months I have tried to wait to test because the disappointment is just too great but the hope inside me takes over and I find myself peeing on a stick again.



This morning my temperature dropped and I started spotting. I am 13 DPO. I felt sad all day long. However, if this is the end of this cycle I'd like to get another started so we can get to the good part. I just wish I knew exactly what it was I should be doing in order to make this happen.

There's a New 'Saur Up in Here!

Hello! I am Laughosaur, a new 'Saur, and I couldn't be more excited to have a place to share my journey through TTC. I am honest and open and don't mind sharing anything and everything, hopefully you're ok with that!

My husband and I have been married for 2 years. We live in a house with a cat and a dog that drive each other crazy, which seems natural to me. What I find unnatural is when cats and dogs like each other and cuddle. However, it is really cute and I would love to see our pets do that.

Anyway, we have been TTC since May for our first baby. We have lots of friends that have babies and toddlers or are pregnant. We used to enjoy being the only ones without kids but now it is getting old. Of course, it seems like everyone I know or see is pregnant. Isn't that the way!?

I would I could tell you that I wasn't naive when I thought getting pregnant would be easy. I had it all planned out in my mind. We'd get pregnant with in a month or so and we'd be celebrating the Holiday Season with me having a baby belly and enjoying all that comes with that. By spring we'd have a bundle of joy and life would be grand.

As many of you know, that hardly ever happens. Unfortunately, it wasn't until we find ourselves 8 months into it that I am realizing that there are in fact people I know that have not gotten pregnant the first or second month of trying. It is wonderful to know that there are other couples going through the same thing you are. Of course you wouldn't wish the stress and frustration of this magical time on anyone, but it is a relief to know you aren't the only one. It took this long to find out that I know people in real life going through many months of trying because people don't talk about it. Not at first. It takes a few times of you bringing it up and talking about yourself before they get comfortable and share with you their journey. I wish people were more open about it because it might give many people some relief because here I was thinking that it would be super fast for us based on the fact that "everyone" I knew had experiences like that. However, I realize how private an experience this is, so I can respect that.

So, what have we been doing throughout this process?

I've read Taking Charge of Your Fertility and pretty much know the text like the back of my hand.

I have been charting my basal body temp since last October.

*images from google.com

Not my chart, though I wish it were because that would be a good thing!

We have used Pre-Seed a few times.

We also started using OPKs this past cycle.

I look forward to sharing more with you all! Feel free to ask any questions about whatever you want because like I mentioned above, I am open and don't mind sharing!

Pregosaur needs YOU!

Congratulations to all of the awesome 'saurs who have given birth lately! We've had a great time following their journeys, and now we're looking for new 'saurs to join the blog! You'll need to be:

• Actively trying to conceive, currently pregnant or adopting
• Willing to share the details of your journey (even the TMI ones!)
  
• Committed to posting a couple of times per week
• Able to write for an audience (if you currently blog, include a link so we can take a look - it's OK if you don't, you just need the ability to compose a compelling post and keep a reader's attention - include a draft post or two so we can check out your writing style)

If that sounds like you, send an email telling us a bit about yourself to pregosaur@gmail.com - we can't wait to hear from you!